The fluorescent light above the conference table flickers at a frequency that makes my left eyelid twitch every 6 seconds. I am sitting in the 16th floor deposition room of a glass-and-steel monolith, serving as the linguistic bridge between a 76-year-old grandmother and a phalanx of 6 corporate defense attorneys. Martha, the grandmother, is being asked about her shoes. Not just the brand, but the microscopic state of the rubber soles. The lawyer, a man whose silk tie probably costs $406, is leaning in with a look of feigned concern that doesn't reach his eyes.
"Mrs. Gable," he says, his voice smooth as polished stone, "would you say you were walking at a brisk pace toward the dairy aisle, or were you more concerned with the 16 items on your grocery list?"
I translate this into her native tongue, and I watch her hands shake. She wasn't running. She wasn't juggling a dozen oranges. She was just a woman trying to buy milk on a Tuesday afternoon. But in this room, the burden of the universe has shifted. The liquid on the floor-a puddle of clear soap that had been sitting there for 56 minutes according to the surveillance footage-is no longer the central character of this tragedy. Martha's sneakers are. Her cognitive focus is. Her age, her gait, her very existence in that aisle at that moment are being interrogated as if she were the architect of her own disaster.
The Quiet Search for Control
I spent my morning before this deposition alphabetizing my spice rack. It is a ritual I perform when the world feels particularly jagged. I moved the Nutmeg to follow the Mustard, and I made sure the Allspice was perfectly aligned with the Anise. It took me exactly 26 minutes to feel a sense of peace. We crave order. We crave a world where if you follow the rules, you don't get hurt. If Martha got hurt, our collective subconscious whispers, she must have missed a rule. Because if she followed every rule and still ended up with a shattered hip and 46 days of grueling physical therapy, then it could happen to me. It could happen to anyone.
The Comforting Lie of Causality
[The Just-World Fallacy is the psychological armor we wear to keep from realizing how vulnerable we truly are.]
Psychologists call this the Just-World Fallacy. It's a cognitive bias that suggests people get what they deserve. It's a comforting lie. It tells us that the universe is a giant, celestial vending machine where you insert 'Good Behavior' and receive 'Safety.' When we see someone suffer, our brains immediately begin a forensic audit of their actions. We look for the flaw. Did she look down? Was she wearing her glasses? Was she distracted by a text message she received 36 minutes prior? If we can find a mistake, we can isolate the tragedy. We can say, "I wouldn't have done that," and thereby conclude, "I will not suffer that."
But the reality is far more terrifying. The reality is that systems fail. Corporations cut corners. They reduce janitorial staff by 26 percent to meet quarterly earnings. They ignore a leaking refrigeration unit for 6 days because the repair part is backordered. These are systemic failures. They are boring, bureaucratic, and cold. It is much more emotionally satisfying to blame Martha for her choice of footwear than it is to blame a global retail giant for a systemic culture of negligence.
In the room, the lawyer is now holding up a photo of Martha's phone. "We see here, Mrs. Gable, that you received a notification at 2:06 PM. The slip occurred at 2:16 PM. Can you prove you weren't still thinking about that notification?"
Weaponizing Our Need for Order
It is a ridiculous question. It is an absurd, 6-sided die of a logic puzzle designed to make a victim feel like a criminal. I've seen this happen in 106 depositions over the last 6 years. The script never changes. The defense isn't just trying to save money; they are weaponizing our own psychological need for order against us. They want the jury to look at Martha and see a woman who was 'partially at fault' because that allows the jury to maintain their own illusion of safety. If Martha is 46 percent responsible, then the world is still 54 percent predictable.
I made a mistake in a translation once, back in 2006. I used the word for 'stumbled' instead of 'tripped.' It seems minor, but in the legal world, that's a 126-mile difference. A stumble implies a loss of balance from within; a trip implies an external force.
I spent 6 nights awake, staring at my ceiling, replaying the moment. I blamed myself for the outcome of that case, even though the evidence of the defendant's guilt was 186 pages long. We are our own harshest interrogators. Martha is already doing the lawyer's work for him; she has spent the last 6 months wondering if she should have just stayed home that day.
When you're facing that level of institutional gaslighting, having siben & siben personal injury attorneys by your side changes the gravity of the room. It's about more than just the law; it's about having someone who refuses to let the victim become the villain of their own story. They refocus the lens. They move the conversation away from Martha's sneakers and back to the 66-gallon spill that should have been cleaned up an hour before she arrived. They dismantle the Just-World Fallacy piece by piece, reminding everyone that sometimes, the world is just unfair, and the person who caused the unfairness needs to pay.
The Cruelty of Pre-existing Conditions
The lawyer pauses to sip water from a 6-ounce cup. He's looking for his next angle. He's going to ask about her medical history next. He's going to suggest that her 'pre-existing' knee pain from 1996 is the real reason she couldn't catch herself. He will try to turn her life's history into a map of her inevitable failure. It's a cruel game, but it's the only game the system knows how to play.
Hiding the Rot: Finding the 1% Error
Blamed Focus (Internal)
Bureaucratic Negligence (External)
We blame victims because it allows us to sleep at night. We blame the worker who wasn't wearing the exact right gloves when the machine-which hadn't been serviced in 36 months-malfunctioned. We blame the driver who was going 26 miles per hour in a 25-zone when a truck blew a red light. We find the 1 percent of error to hide the 99 percent of systemic rot.
The Weight of Neutrality
As a court interpreter, I am supposed to be a neutral vessel. I am a conduit for words, a shadow in the room. But sometimes, the words feel like lead in my mouth. I want to tell Martha to look him in the eye and say that her shoes are fine. I want to tell the room that a spice rack can be alphabetized, but a human life cannot be categorized into neat little boxes of 'fault.'
The deposition goes on for another 136 minutes. By the end, Martha looks smaller than when she walked in. She looks like someone who has been convinced that her own gravity betrayed her. But as we leave, one of the younger attorneys from the plaintiff's side leans in and says something quiet to her. He doesn't ask about her shoes. He asks her about her grandkids. He acknowledges her humanity in a building designed to strip it away.
The Acceptance of Chaos
I go home and look at my spice rack. I realize I put the Cinnamon in the wrong spot. It's sitting there, 6 millimeters out of alignment. I leave it. I have to. Because if I can't live with a little bit of disorder in my kitchen, how am I supposed to live with the chaos of the 6th floor? We are all walking on wet floors, all the time. Some of us are just lucky enough to have someone to catch us when the system tries to let us fall.
How much of your sense of safety is built on the lie that you are in total control of your own luck?